Through the heart of "an almost" Ya-Ya

When Kassie told us she was pregnant the entire family was jumping for joy. First grandchild!! She is now about 17 weeks (over 4 months) – she called me yesterday and told me that they would be able to find out the sex of the baby October 13 and she wants me to go with her. I almost cried. It’s finally sinking in that my baby is going to have a baby!

My emotions are all up in the air – their 1 year wedding anniversary is this weekend. WOW, it has flown by so fast. I have so many memories helping plan her wedding. My mom and I took her to pick out a dress….I cried. Alan, my mom and Kassie went on adventures looking for a place to have the ceremony (I had to work). Finally decided on an outside wedding in Decatur, under a gazebo. Then the reception would be at a nearby hotel – perfect…..I cried. Kassie and I picked out the flowers (fun, fun, fun), invitations, wedding cake (that’s another story), tablecloths, ribbon color, taste testing, putting together party favors, phone calls, cancellations, decisions…..my head is spinning again. Having only 1 daughter, ever second was worth it!! It was all beautiful! Now, another chapter in my life. One I have never experienced and ….

How did this happen before my eyes? (How did she walk, talk, run, laugh, love, cry) And now…..she is going to be a Mommy. She has waited for this her entire life. As far back as I can remember she “thought” she was a Mommy with all of her babies that she played with. Even on the weekends if we past by her day care she would say, “I need to go check on my kids!” The Lord has blessed me with wonderful children who I adore – now my heart is getting ready for the next generation :)

I am going to be a Grandma! Ya-Ya to be exact. That name is soooo me! (And Alan will either my Poppy or Popa, he hasn't decided) I can’t imagine loving a child as much as I love “my babies”. This little baby will be a part of me. Will he/she like me? Will I remember how to handle a baby? All these thoughts run through my head and I am sure of one thing and one thing only...........

Little "Baxton West" or "Lily Lane", whoever God blesses our family with….I will love this baby with my entire being and pray that I can step into my mom’s shoes of being “Nanny” as I create my legend of “Ya-Ya”!!